The Man Behind the Bre

My husband..Nate. Even though I will vent alot on this page..my husband is actually really wonderful. I am a difficult bratty wife. :) Hey, I can admit to that and he is a trooper. Like with the dog thing. He lets me get mad and scream but afterwards I realized that it was "our" problem and we had to take care of it together. Alittle about my man. Well he is a survivor. 4 years ago he was diagnosed with testicular cancer and faced it head on. He is down one guy now but was spared radiation or anything. A few months after cancer he lost his father. A man that was admired and respected by man. He kept his promise to his father and graduated from JU in May 2007 and started his own computer business in June. Then in August he had a heart attack! It was an eye open for the both of us. He dropped 20 pounds and has changed his eatting habit..with a few slip ups. He is a hockey God. He learned to skate as soon as he could walk. In the past years I have seen this guy grow into a true man, father, and husband.

So frustrated!

The cause of my frustration...is the 3 above. I am not a 100% dog person. That being said I have 3 of them in my house. I hate that we a slave to these dogs and that they run our home. I have to take medicine so I can sleep in my bed and breath. Yep, I have to sleep in the same beds as a dog. And despite the medical issue my husband still lets them sleep in there. As much as he says he doesn't I know when I am not there the dogs our in our bed. Isn't your wife more important? The barking isn't as bad anymore but the damn potty training is the worst. Let me just say that I completely blame Nate for it all because I don't want the dogs. I have begged and pleaded for him to give them away and since he refuses they are his responsibility. He told me 6 weeks before our wedding that he would take care of the problem however just tonight a 60 pound pitbull shit in our sons room! And there are 3 pee stains in his room. Come on! This is our child and our quality of living! I just don't get it. I want to be able to take care of our nice home and it doesn't seem to matter. When is it going to be me over the dogs????

Indians

A little blurry but Nate just emailed me the pic of them with war paint on their face. They took turns painting one another. This is what memories are made of.

Any way you can

This morning Yaritza, John, and I walked a 5K for the companies Body Beautiful Challange. It was a nice walk and Yaritza and I got to gab alot. She has an adorable son and everytime I am around a baby it makes me want to get knocked up! But I am holding out until after our cruise. After the walk I came home and did chores all day. I got alot done around the house and it feels good. The boys are camping all weekend with the YMCA Indian Guide program so I am all by myself. Oh, I have the dogs! I also got a grib on both of our financial obligations and I think I understand where we both are and we might be ready to combine checking accounts as of the first. *Gasp* I feel alot better digging through all the mail and taking notes. I feel like we should be able to accomplish some of our finacial goals with no problem.
I am suppose to be at Cecil's right now but I am exhausted and kinda enjoying the peaceful house. It isn't very often when I am 100% by myself. I enjoy it but in a way I am jealous too. Nate has called my throughout their camping trip and updated me on their events and I wish I could be there. I wish I could be having fun with them too. I also realize how important it is that Nate & E-diddy have this bonding time but I still miss my boys....

First Goal: Weight Control

This is me. At a big ole 249 pounds! I think I carry it pretty good but I feel like a fat slob. Growing up I wasn't the thinnest kid in the world but prebaby I was 5'9 and 180 pounds. That is where I would like to be again. So today is the first day. I first need to get something to get me going and my doctor prescribed me phentermine to help with the initial weight loss. I want a life change and not a quick fix so I want to make sure I do this right. I thought about joining the YMCA but do I really need to spend $40 a month on a membership? I read on another forum last night about a girls workout routine that has help during TV time. I think I am going to try this out first. 1 hour show: During the show jump on a trampoline for cardio. During commercials due crunches. don't count just keep going. sounds simple and cheap to me. I found this trampoline from Walmart which I am going to order today. Tomorrow I am walking in a 5k for a thing at my work and next month I hope to atleast run/walk in one. In everything else in my life I am a doer. I am not a talker. I get things done and this is the one thing that I just talk and talk about. Today I hope to start changing that.

Goals

I am a pretty anal person. I haven't always been. If you ask my family or one of my 5 sisters/1 brother they would say that I was a messy teenager and basically a hot mess but having my son at the age of 20 it changed who I became. (thank God) My sister, Charlyn, came to visit me for the first time in 3 years and she was shocked to see a clean orderly house and my new habits. I guess that is what 7 years of motherhood will do to a girl. This is all good BUT I have to work at it. I have to write everything down or I will be that hot mess once again. Oh, by the way I am long winded :) Okay so the point of this blog is that I wanted to set some goals. I mean this thing has to have a purpose right? In no particular order here they are:

• get a raise


• not be so tough on my husband


• get a grip on my weight. more specifically weigh 180


• slow down my life alitte and organize some things


• keep going to college and finish


• get a fence up


• paint the walls in the house


• buy a new dining room set


• buy a new bedroom set


• talk to my sister Katherine


• take care of my car


• take care of some oustanding debts


• find a church


• exercise 4 days a week
• learn to use my new camera G9
• make sure my husband knows I love him everyday
• become pregnant between "the cruise" and Christmas

I don't have time lines for the goals and there is so much I am missing and things I can probably take off but it is 10pm and past my bed time.

Where to start

Me with my boys 3/8/08
My husband & I 3/8/08

"Trash the Dress" Session 4/10/08

A little sass

Just me :)

As a teenager I always kept a journal about being a high school girl with strange parents and boy crazy. I still have those journals and love to read through them. I am blog obsessed now. My obsession started while planning my wedding. I would go from photographer's blogs to another. My favs being http://crl.typepad.com/capturing_real_life/, http://www.scarlettlillian.net/, and more. From there I found the hostess with the mostess blog and a zillion other wedding planning blogs. So tonight after thinking about it for a few days I decided to start my own blog. What will I blog about? Me :) my boys (Nate, my husband and E-diddy, my son), the dogs that drive me crazy, my work that I love and hate, my family which would remind you a bad reality show, my weight which I am have been have assing to get under control. Will anyone read this blog? I have no idea. Will I keep up with it? Only time will tell.