we had our first baby making session this morning. I know it is not the first of the year but everything I have read says it might take up to 6 months. The thought that in a few months I can be carry out little baby makes me feel indescribable. It has been so long since I was pregnant with Ethan I am scared. What if I can't get pregnant? Will it be a healthy baby? Will out finance go down the crapper and I won't be able to provide for the baby and Ethan? Will I be a good mom? Will I remember how to be a mom to a newborn baby? Will it all be too much for me and Nate. Our family of 3 is great what if it all falls apart again? What will he/she look like? Like me? Will he have his Daddy's adorable nose? Will he have his Daddy loving heart and his Momma's goofiness? I am going to drive myself crazy with all these questions and worries. It is just the way I am. I hope Ethan and our new baby will have their Daddy's carefree spirit. I wish I had it :) Despite all my concerns above all I am so excited. I can't wait to be carry our little baby. I can't wait for Nate to look into his own eyes. I can't wait for Ethan to be the big brother he has been praying for. I have been pushing my belly out in he mirror and trying to remember what it feels and looks like. silly huh?
Day 1 out of ???????
