My reality

My reality might be a little different than yours. Tomorrow when my husband has a colonoscopy I have more fears than a normal wife.  It's such a simple process but my husband's life and health is anything but simple ever. After his mother's death which started with a colonscopy and his brother's recent diagnoses of colon cancer my fear factor is up a bit. I know when they roll him away for this simple procedure I will be holding back fears and tears. Counting down the moments when I can look into my husband's eyes again.

Exagerrated fears right? Fears of a wife that has seen cancer, heart attacks, and nightmares of a future that doesn't contain my best friend.  I'm looking forward to fast forwarding past tomorrow.