Checking In

We just came back from a wonderful minivacation to Disney World. We had a wonderful time and it was a nice getaway before our family cruise. I can not believe it is only 3 weeks away and the summer is flying by so quickly. Since coming back we have kinda been hibernating after work. It has been nice but i think we are getting cabin fever and all looking forward to an outdoor weekend.
Fitness: I was doing great until this week. I have had a hard time getting off of vacation mode and back into the gym. I told my gym partner that I needed him to reconfirm to the program on Monday to help me get back on track and he is on board.
TTC: I got my period yesterday which means it was unsucessful last month. Along with the awful cramps I had yesterday I had was hit with a wave of emotion. Disappointment, heartbreak. Should we give up. Should I take these pills that mess w/ my hormones and it is all a waste of time or is it really going to work one day. I want a baby. i want to be able to give that joy to my husband. I'm suppose to go to lunch with my gf who is 9 months prego and I kinda want to avoid it bc I am soooo green with envy.

this little one keeps me going and the love & support from my husband...how blessed we would be to have a second one.