After my last post I left my computer and went to an AA meeting. I spoke to my husband on the way there about the things I had been feeling and thinking and told him I just wanted to go inside and see what it was about. I had to introduce myself but I didn't say Alcoholic because I don't think that is the right label. I didn't take a chip because I don't know if that is the right step for me. I enjoyed the meeting and the lady speaking was someone I actually knew and assumed all the wrong things about her. The meeting was about humility and it was a great topic to listen to. I left there feeling like I wasn't an Alcoholic but that I was going to stop drinking for 30 days. Not a single ounce. IF that proves to be a problem then obviously I need to take a step back and rethink things.
Just like with Al Anon AA is an amazing thing. For $2 a meeting you get an awesome counseling session. I think I will attended a couple more. What harm will it do? None but it could enlighten me greatly.
The best part is after pointing out things to Nate about what I considered our bad choices during the past 9 months I could tell it really hit home with him too and he is on board. He didn't argue with me and told me when I said it all together it sounded pretty bad. We need to make better choices for our family. I use to be the girl that had 2 or 3 beers but maintained my dignity and grace...now I'm drunk Sabrina. I want to go back to that girl.
My challenges around..a club social tomorrow night, football games, and various dinners. No cheating.
Thirty days starting Sept 9. Ready Set Go!
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