My choice

I'm fat. Well actually I'm not just fat, I'm morbidly obese. How disgusting is that? I've made a choice. In May I'm going to elect to have Gastric Bypass Surgery. I understand that I'm choosing to have surgery to fix something that I might be able to fix by shutting my pie hole and getting on a treadmill but the truth is I've tried. I've struggled and I'm gaining more weight. The truth is I'm killing myself. The longer I am fat, no morbidly obese, the more years I'm taking off of my life. The more time I'm letting slip through my fingers with my husband and my beautiful children. I'm ready for a new life for me and my family.

The journey won't be easy. Don't be fooled to think that I'm taking the easy way out. The insurance carrier requires that I participate in a minimum of six months weight-management program that documents that following components:
Vital Signs
Dietary Program
Physical Activity
Behavior intervention to reinforce healthy eating & exercise habits

I must also have a psychological evaluation. Wonder if I will pass that? :)

The out of pocket expense is going to be around $6,000. That price alone has been a struggle with me. $6,000 on myself? I could spend that money on my kids or husband. But I keep reminding myself that this isn't just for me, it's for all of us.

For the next 9 months I'm going to document my journey though this blog. After the surgery I'm going to document my choice. I know that the road ahead of me is going to be filled with ups and downs. That I will face challenge. With the support of my husband I know that I will reach my goal. To live my life.

Current Stats: Weight-283.3 BMI:41.8

MB Ideas

I also love the pics from this recent masterbedroom makeover. http://www.suburbanspunkdesign.com/2010/05/master-bedroom-redo-reveal.html

Our Nursery Inspiration

This is the nursery inspiration we settled on for Lorelei found on ratemyspace. The boys are going to paint the nursery this weekend and I can't wait to get started on the rest!

Wall Decal: http://www.etsy.com/view_transaction.php?transaction_id=23979381

The wall color is Martinique Dawn from Valspar, pink window panels are from Bed, Bath and Beyond, and the chandelier is from Home Depot. (Hampton Bay Kristin Collection Antique White Finish 3-Light Mini Chandelier (Model # HB3430-44)

Letter: http://www.etsy.com/view_transaction.php?transaction_id=27036713

I think for now we have decided to go without the bumper and bedding sets because of the risk of SIDs. We will be putting on a bed skirt though which I will be making :) I want to run the bedskirt to the ground to help conseal storage. I think I will also be leaving out the mobile. As a baby Ethan did not use and then he tore it down every morning lol.

I was thinking of adding a few other ideas in to make it our own and not an exact replica. over the changing dresser/table. something like this.

Next to the changing table a small antique white rocking chair with these neat toy and book holders attached to the wall.

And then the dresser we are painting to match the crib lining the dressers with a lighter paper.

Big Kids Room

Lorelei Nursery Ideas

I am going from one extreme to another. but here are a few of my favs online.

Chocolate Brown, Raspberry, Pink, Yellow, and hint of Orange

Just some ideas

Our masterbed room head board is high and I like the idea of putting mirrors behind the nightstands.

I love this room for organzing in a kids room.

I would really like to make Ethan a fort bed.

More Nursery Pics